His Demon

 

His Demon

I felt the same breeze as last year,

The breeze that strike me with a spear.

It was the same day back then,

But the day will never be again.

My heart was smiling like it won't last;

And what I thought was just a mask.

I was so happy from my family outing,

But he instantly change everything to melancholy.

It was the night when I learned to say No;

To his demands I felt so absurd.

I tried putting a joke on what I felt;

But he took it so seriously, silent treatment was my penalty.

I thought he wanted to keep in touch,

But he showed me I was too much.

I thought he just wanted to hear me talk,

But he reappears with a hefty storm.

I did my best to support his likes and hobbies;

Didn't mind spending my own money.

I guess I was never enough;

For someone who only sees me as a bluff.

It was the day I first met this new demon,

I learned to listen to all his sermons.

Everyday was like a battlefield inside of me;

I asked God, "Please come and save me."

But the saving was not that easy;

It brought more pain after facing it.

The world showed me that it was breaking;

I stood firm, smiling like I was ready.

Everyday I fought hard to win every battle;

Everyday it shakes me and gave me a rattle.

I thought I was slaying my own demon,

But I realized, I was facing his untamed demon.

                                                           -Laezee