Where to Begin

Where do I begin?
Where all I thought was magic became tragic.
Where do I begin?
Where all the excitement became panic.

I came across with a lot of men;
Came to know each one of them.
Some tried to capture my heart;
I can't deny, most of them have thrived.

I was caught off guard with some eyes;
I fell madly deeply in love, but it was a trap.
Touched by their thoughtfulness flattery care;
But yeah! They're like that with every woman they've met.

I was intoxicated by what they called love;
But at the end, I always question, "Was it love?"
Fascinated with what they tried to provide;
My God! It was only during at the start.

I met all the butterflies inside of me;

Can't forget all their flattery remarks dropped for me.

They sang me a song which became my favorite music to hear;

Thank God! They never finished singing it all for me.

Some even tried to dance just to make me laugh;

Saying my laughter was the best part.

They didn't know my happiness is not hard to find;

But I thank them for the effort, here's my high five!

I received roses that reflected their feelings;

I forgot to tell, I buy myself flowers every week.

But I always leave the best things for them to discover;

Sadly, they never found what I wanted to be discovered.

I can still remember the feeling like it was meant to be;
Forgetting all his flaws and loved him every inch.
But what was meant to be was not always as it is;
It became meant to be because I let myself believed it was it.

I was lied to, betrayed, left alone and shattered finely inside;
I started thinking what true love really feels like.
I asked myself what am I truly looking in a man;
"I am searching beyond infinity, a love so unconditionally."

But, I still don't know how and when to be sure;
That what I found was the one I've been praying, and is pure.
I still don't know that old feeling they keep telling me;
But maybe, if he's truly the one, he'll lead me where to begin.

                                                                        -Laezee