My Christmas

 

My Christmas

Christmas day was my most awaited time of the year,

Looking forward for every gifts I will receive.

Excited for my favorite dish to eat;

I just can't wait to see my family all-day smiling.

But as the calendars were shedding its skin,

My perspectives became more realistic to deal with.

I started not to wait on Christmas day,

For I can do everything I wanted each day.

Randomly giving out gifts on their birthdays,

And eating my favorite dish on my most boring day.

I just can't have a life only for a day,

I chose to experience life each morning I gain.

Christmas must not be used as an excuse,

For most people use it for their ego to boost.

May your Christmas be filled with genuine happiness,

Happiness that only you can choose to happen.

Never be fooled by how the world defines it,

For everyone will have something about it.

Just remember, Christmas day is a celebration of birth of life through birth of Christ.

Accept everything.

Be grateful for it.

And forgive everything in between.

"May everyone have the Merriest Christmas that you deserve, not only today but everyday."

                                            -Laezee

The Chaos Inside of Them

 

Life's teachings: The Chaos Inside of Them

Life is indeed a personal journey, one must have to take alone. Every circumstances has their own lessons for us to learn. And one of them is how people treated you, not only for a day but for every single day.

As I met a lot of people along the way, in every activity I made, I get to meet different attitude, character and personality which I was able to comprehend and adjust. And I realized, people will treat you according with how well is their being inside.

What I mean is that, if they are mean, harmful and disrespectful, it will never be about you, NEVER. I truly believe that it is a sign they're not happy with themselves deep within, could be from resentments and unhealed parts of them that they're in denial for long time ago. As a result, they need to perceive something wrong from you and from others in order for them to feel better and pass on the chaos they failed to settled within them. They will try to make illusions inside their head that they're okay and passing on the idea of the wrong with the people who showed them care and understanding and eventually making you the villain of their story. Selfish right? It is the most selfish thing a person can do to be exact. They're the weakest people I ever met.

Why I was able to say that? Because I see myself as an example who have no resentments nor sense of retaliation with people who caused me pain or do me wrong. Never did I disrespect the person who hurt me, and never did I become mean to people who pulled me down. I remain unbothered and focused with my own healing because it is the best thing I need to do and that's who I am. I cannot stop being good just because they treated me wrong. I communicate as much as possible and never let any one be left thinking if something was wrong with them because it would only pass on the resentments which should have been stopped from me. And what happened to them? Ask yourself what you're going through right now, maybe you're not far from becoming like them. Maybe you're one of them, easily bothered with the chaos inside of you. And you'll know what happened to them, it's obviously seen from the naked eye.

And about faith? It will never save a person unless he or she chooses to be saved. How can you be saved if you continue doing the same exact things you wanted to be saved from? God doesn't help people who have no actions of changing themselves in a long term. Blessing will become a temporary thing not a lifelong gift.  It's more like, heal yourself so that you won't push people away that the universe has sent for you. Either way, you choose.

Indeed, life is finding meaning and purpose of your own life. Remain unbothered. Always forgive, not because you tolerate their acts but because your soul deserves peace. Practice this and you will see that the world isn't chaotic after all, it became chaotic from the eyes of the people who aren't at peace with themselves dragging people to see the same. NEVER BE ONE OF THEM. JUST NEVER.

-Laezee

The Only Way Out

 

The Only Way Out

“Be aware: Positivity won't cure a mental illness.”

The say it's only a bad day, it'll be alright;

With an overwhelming inability to live life.

However, unnoticeable things started to show up;

Having so much more than any one word can describe.

Everything feels too heavy on the inside,

It was insidious, creeping in and building up over time.

The low is so low that it seems to take you over.

Unknowingly, the black cloud is being overheard.

Darkness surrounded you and was left all alone,

Making it so hard to come out of it alone.

You started to live with the darkness and getting used to it,

Thinking it was the only solution and you feel safer with it.

But have courage to ignite a spark,

To give yourself a shed of light.

And try to see what surrounds you,

You will see, I've always been there, smiling at you.

I don't need any explanation from you,

Your eyes will tell everything about you.

Just grab my hand and hold them tight,

I'll lead you the way;

The only way out.

                                                                             -Laezee

Author's note:

    "Sometimes we tend to forget what God has made for us, not until someone showed it to us. So, muster the courage to accept everything around you, for you to see the people who were meant for you."

(The word "I" as aforementioned, can be God and/or someone who loves you so much used by God for your true and complete healing.)