Only ME

Only Me


"You will know if it's him. You just have to discover it."

It was during the Second Semester of my third year in college when I met someone.
Someone who I never knew it was;

Someone who changed my life.

He became my classmate in one of my subject.

He sits on my left back wing, around two chairs away from me.

He is a bit shy but too cute when he smiles.

I instantly fall for him, without knowing why.

He is not that handsome and manly same as Chris Evans,

but I could compare him to a male korean lead star.

Having small eyes, shy, cute, and quiet.
He is the boy who stole my heart.

It felt like I was filming a drama that time.

Caught him stealing a glimpse, making me blush inside.

Same as those korean dramas when a guy finds a girl pretty,

making me assume that he likes me secretly.

He covers his face when we accidentally face each other,
I don't know why but it always bothers.
I can't forget your deep dimpled smile,

I just can't stop it but to fall again twice.

As days went by,

We got closer and he's always there by my side.

I couldn't remember how or when it started, it just happened.

I got a chance to know him better,
Hearing my heart shouting for 'help her' .

My feelings became so much addictive,
I think I'm high like I've taken a narcotic.
I admit this was the first time,
And I called it 'love at first sight'.

Everyday he is in my mind, 
like a food that I crave every time.

I compare him to every boy I met,

Closing any potential relationship with other men.

His name always pops up in my head when I talk about relationship.

Made me write my name with his surname on it.

I think I am going crazy and possessive,
Like taking too much medicine, it becomes so addictive.
But I have a big problem to deal with,

I have no assurance if he's ready to catch me;
I'm really falling.

Yes, it was a one sided love.
Without a guarantee to be loved.

Because for all those time, it was only me;

Having high hopes and daydreams.

In the end,
I was the only one who is hoping.

I was the only one dreaming to be with him.

And there,
I was the only one who is LOVING.

                                                   --Leizel Zafra