A Letter to Remember: Birth to Life
-Laezee
To someone they call "I",
I was born in this world having nothing. I was no one and I don't know how to do things properly. I don't know love, hate and anger back then. All I know is to smile and laugh until my day ends.
I don't care what I look like. I don't care what it feels like. I don't care what people would tell me. I don't have any worries that would bother me.
I am always afraid of other people. I always hide behind my mother. Always too shy to say 'hi'. Never dared to make friends through a smile.
I would always remember my parents would say, "Don't talk to someone who you do not know." Giving me fear on meeting a stranger. I locked myself up with small circle of friends. Acting like they're the only ones I know.
I stayed up all day playing with dirt. Running around like being chased by a monster. I get bruises and wounds around my joints. I cry whenever I'm lost to a new world.
Days went by and I started to grow. I learned a lot of things from what I observe. I always copy what the elders would do, excited to be an adult too. Small things satisfies me; receiving a lollipop is more valuable than money. I see everything to be simple and very easy.
The growing stage was hard. I started to feel hatred and anger towards anyone. I became emotionally imbalance. Always aiming to be noticed by everyone.
I always want to be praised in all I do, believing I'm always good. I say what I want, and I say what I mean. Nothing can stop me from what I am doing.
I learned to walk alone, I met different people along the road. I learned to adjust and accept my defeat. I learned to where my place should be. And I learned to consider what others would feel.
I started to have my own dreams. To be someone who I admire to be. Having thoughts to help my parents and others. Believing in myself that someday I will prosper.
I'm on my way on making my goals and dreams to reality. It was not that easy as I thought it would be. I learned how to sacrifice and bargain things. Dealing with temptations was a fifty-fifty.
Challenges and problems won't leave me. Stress and depression became part of me. How lucky I was to find true friends. Who stayed and help me give colors in my world of sadness.
Years went by and I'm going near, too near in fulfilling my dreams. I took my college degree and think more seriously. I became matured to fit in with my surroundings. I took risks and learned everything from it.
I focused heavily to graduate, get a diploma and have a job. But fate was really unexpected for me at that time. I learned to love and I fell for love. I was never prepared to play the game of love.
I don't know how it should be, I don't know if it was real. But it was my first to feel it. And it was my first to meet someone like him...............
to be continued
SOON: A Letter to Remember: Your First Love
