"They don't see me as an art, but I drew pictures in your mind.
I made thoughts gone wild with my words that were colored with black and white."
-Laezee (Art of Writing)

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Can't Love, No More

Can't Love, No More 


Past can't be unravel
I'm so tired of this travel.
Feelings were weary and blue,
I don't want to see you.

I have high hopes on your return
However, all you did was to turn.
My heart was left hanging because of you
Wishing I never met you.

I called you many times a day,
I have so many things to say.
My feelings for you never fade away,
You were the one who got away.

So please wake me up,
To end this vague us.
I want to clear everything from the start,
We had friendship but not love.

                               --Leizel Zafra

Sunday, April 12, 2015

"I'm on My Way"

"Quality education takes time."


This quotation has been my self motto towards my studies after experiencing my greatest downfall in life, in my college life that is. But after all those trials, April 6, 2015 marks my graduation day and will end my college life but then again, will be the start of a new journey in life. So before I will finally say goodbye to student life, let me go back and reminisce my life in college years.

Let's walk together in my memory lane

College life, full of tears, joy, craziness, love, heartbreaks and blessings. I could say that it was the most highlighted event in my life. I was able to discover the real me, meet different people who became my friends, enemies, inspiration and heart breaker. It definitely molded me to who I am today.

In the year 2010, I was an Accountancy student. I enrolled in the Accountancy program without thinking if I really love to take up this course, instead, I just choose it from the list because I don't have any choice since my brother (who is an engineer) discouraged me to take up engineering course because in real life situation or should I say in practical work, engineer women were less trusted with their decisions unlike with men. Me who was very young back then, listen to every advice of older people, those words were retained in my head and during enrollment, I wrote Accountancy in my form. And in the end, I realized that there's no turning back, I am already enrolled.

My Accountancy life was the very crucial and stressful stage of my life. All I ever did was to study~study~study, it felt like it was not me anymore. I really hate studying ever since, though I love to read novels well it is very different from studying. I really can't imagine myself graduated as 1st honorable mention during high school and awarded as best in math knowing that I am the type of person who is lazy in studying, I guess I'm just really lucky. But my luck was only activated in my high school years.

After 2 years as an accountancy student, it really felt like my life in school was in hell. So many things to do and to take into my mind; journalizing, debit/credit, financial statements, worksheets, cash flows, law and many more. I endure everything even after knowing that I am really not into this field. I practice to love it but still it didn't work, it didn't love me back.

And here comes the time that I didn't reached the cut off grade in my financial accounting 1, like it was only point something to make it pass. I retake the said subject believing it deserves a second chance and so I passed. But during the next semester during financial accounting 2, finally came to the point that my heart is really giving up but my mind keeps telling me to continue. It really made me depressed at those time, a little bit crazy somehow. It really feels like giving up but I'm still fighting for it. Like love huh? Well my love life seems to be the same, I guess I'm really not lucky with my first choices (both course and in love). ---  I think this really deserves a separate post! hahaha

My fate in accountancy program really came to an end. My grade in financial 2 also didn't reach the cut off, still point something to make it pass. I guess it was really not my destiny to become CPA someday. I took the second chance, yes I passed but as I continue it really tells me to stop. My heart ached not that much but my mind was so stressed and depressed where it can't think properly. It made me crazy for some months knowing that I also need to tell my parents that I already gave up. I will be shifting to Accounting Technology, still a sister course with Accountancy, still the same subjects but it doesn't have a board exam instead a certification given by private sector for us to have CAT (Certified Accounting Technician) to be added on our last name same as CPA.

I know that I wasted one year in school since I was extended to 5 years after retaking financial 1. That one year made me realized that CPA is not meant for me. I continue to pursue the unwanted dream, believing that somehow I can change my fate. But still in the end, my destiny can't  be changed. Maybe God has more plans for me. So I did shifted to BS Accounting Technology in 2013.

Though I left the road to CPA but the new road I took will lead me to CAT with so many opportunities along the way. Yes, so many opportunities along the way. Why? Because after shifting course, I pursued my hobby in cosplay, I was able to participate and be part of different organizations in school and in even outside. I became an academic head in business college, photojournalist and managing editor in voice publication (our schools' student paper), photo editor in vox publication (our yearbook publication) and even became one of the school ambassador. Not only that, I was given a chance to be with photography after my father gave me a canon dslr as a gift to me and most of all, I was able to start the first Kpop Community here in Gensan with my friends and we organize kpop events from 2013 up to present.

You really can never tell how God put everything for you. I fell down and got hurt; after enduring it all and trusting Him, He definitely show me more than what I really didn't expected. It was never part of my plans to be a cosplayer, photographer, make up artist and an organizer. And luckily, one year before my graduation I passed the Civil Service Professional Exam. God is really amazing! Just wait and just do your best, then God will do the rest! ^_^

And after 5 years, my graduation day has finally arrived. I will not be a college student anymore. But my experiences and memories will always be there, will always be remembered and treasured.

My first costrip as a host in a cosplay competition.

First performance in a cosplay singing competition.

Epic fail Naruto cosplay for our english class.

My girls. Our last performance stage with complete members.

My VOX family, during our seminar and team building in Davao City.

My VOICE family together with our adopted community.

We call ourselves EXCON. EX Accountancy student, that is. Hohoho

Last performance in a school event.

With our newly found friends in NDMU.

National Tuna Congress 2015.

With my BFF since highschool up to present.

All the picture were just some of my treasured memories as a college student. Many things did happen and some just happened suddenly. And even as I grow old, everything will be remembered with the help of this post that serves as my journal on how my college life was. 

So as I travel to the road of real life. Someday I'll have my own work, received my titles and awards. Here's my candid and toga picture that will serve as a remembrance and proof that I was once a college student, being able to graduate and received my own degree.




Thus, before I truly put an end to this post. I want to have a short note not only for myself but also for all the people who knows me and who I will be meeting someday. "Time may fly so fast, things and people around us may change. But I tell you, I will always be the same person I am used to be even years went by. I will always be the nerdy, carefree, friendly, honest, easy going, simple, lazy, dreamer and a zombie girl that everybody knows."

Me, Myself and I

Thank you and God Bless! ^_^ FIGHTING!

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Heartbreak at First Sight

Heartbreak at First Sight


I saw you passed by,
Time stopped at that time.
You have this simple yet unique attraction,
That definitely caught my attention.

It was my first to be charmed instantly,
Like a magnet reacting to metal things.
You're captivating enough to make things right,
Like it was a love at first sight.

My eyes kept looking at you,
Wishing to turn around and notice me too.
I observed every move you make,
Making my heart beats like I'm having a race.

But as you walk away from me,
I saw something that would definitely hurt me.
You approached someone and had a sudden kiss,
My heart was in an immediate misery.

You can never tell how fast everything happened at that time;
I imagined things that someday you will be mine.
And I thought it was a real love at first sight,
But I guess it was my heartbreak at first sight.

                                            --Leizel Zafra

Friday, April 3, 2015

Lenten Season: GOOD FRIDAY


On Good Friday, the entire Church fixes her gaze on the Cross at Calvary. Each member of the Church tries to understand at what cost Christ has won our redemption. In the solemn ceremonies of Good Friday, in the Adoration of the Cross, in the chanting of the 'Reproaches', in the reading of the Passion, and in receiving the pre-consecrated Host, we unite ourselves to our Savior, and we contemplate our own death to sin in the Death of our Lord. 

The liturgical observance of this day of Christ's suffering, crucifixion and death evidently has been in existence from the earliest days of the Church. No Mass is celebrated on this day, but the service of Good Friday is called the Mass of the Presanctified because Communion (in the species of bread) which had already been consecrated on Holy Thursday is given to the people . (http://www.catholic.org/clife/lent/friday.php)

Filipinos are also known to be one who really practice and value the real essence Good Friday. Different practices were done; sinakulo (reenactment of passion of Christ) even real people let themselves be crucified, majority of the households would prepare "Binignit", families go together to the church and last, station of the cross --- the highlight of all.

I could really feel that the entire city remembers the solemnity of Good Friday. The city feels like silent hill because of its quietness, less vehicles and people around and majority of the establishments were close. Really a day to be spent solemnly with our love ones and with our Almighty God; a day to be filled with reflections and prayers.








HAVE A BLESSED HOLY WEEK TO EVERYONE!